start doing what makes YOU happy !!!

hey guys !!! 

today's post is going to be about happiness. & what you can do to achieve it. I believe happiness is a temporary feeling. I have yet to be proven wrong. but I also believe you are responsible for your own happiness. you have to do things to get there. even the smallest things can make a person happy. so I'm here to encourage you to do those things !! for example for me: I recently became a blonde from a brunette. I felt like it was time for a change, so I went ahead & dyed my hair blonde. it feels liberating & great to do what you want. I felt happy being able to do something so little such as changing my hair color but super meaningful. I encourage you to step up & do something you've always wanted to do because life is too short. also, never depend on anyone to make you feel happy. you'll just end up getting disappointed !!! If you're reading this, make a list & start doing the things on there !! :-)

xo 

rina

love makes you blind

I'm writing this because it's how I'm feeling at this very moment. when you love someone so much, so strongly & so deeply it makes you oblivious to stuff. when you're in love it causes all the bad things to not look as bad. you start making excuses as to why they do what they do. love makes you blind. it drives you crazy, too. sometimes I wonder why we feel such feeling so deeply that our vision becomes "foggy?!" it hurts to give your all to someone & it not be good enough. I mean maybe it's because they're just the wrong person. or the timing is off...who knows ! everything happens for a reason, right ?? anyways, thought I'd write this quick little post since I'm not active here....if you're reading this just know you aren't the only one feeling a little confused about your emotions or why you feel how you feel. it's a natural & common thing we all have to go through....

much love

xo❤️

finding what you're meant to do/who you're supposed to be...

hey everyone ! I don't know if anyone right now currently feels or is going through what I'm going through, but I currently feel LOST. I am 22 years old, I haven't finished one full semester of college, I've been working in retail since I was 16 years old. numerous things have slowed down my college career. Now that I may have an opportunity to actually go back to school I have no idea what I want to do. I feel pressured by people & myself to quickly find my niche & get my degree. I have a huge fear though....I don't want to end up like everyone else that graduates college- either hating what they do or not finding a good paying job in their field. I do not want to waste years & money trying to do something I might hate. I'm already going through that...I feel super lost as to what I truly want to do. Yet everyone tells me I'm still young & I can do what I want to do. I guess I am my toughest critic at the end of the day. I don't want to FAIL ! I feel like I've already wasted so much time & energy making huge mistakes & failing in many departments that I do not want to keep on doing so. I guess I'm just trying to be the best I can be. I have a hard time relaxing or taking a backseat with certain things. I hope I can get the hang of this soon because I can't keep this up. If anyone shares my pain, please leave a comment !!! 

xo

decisions.

I'm about to make one of the biggest decisions of my young life in the next few days. I'm scared because it is in a way moving backwards. but I know if I do not do this now I'll regret it later. I've wasted my time & energy on the wrong people. it's time to focus on the one person who mostly matters - ME ! I'm about to embark on an epic & crazy journey. I'm leaving behind people who I love deeply & who have hurt me just as deep. this is the opportunity of a lifetime & not everyone can do this. I feel blessed & I also know there is a specific reason as to why I do what I do. will explain soon. xo. 

Random Ramble: Heartbreak

hey guys ! I am sure most of you have fallen in love at least once in your lives, right ? 

well, I have came to the conclusion that sometimes you can love someone oh so very much but at the end of it all- it's still not enough. love sometimes is not enough to maintain a relationship or be with a person. there needs to be a connection & the willfulness to want to make something work. 

when a relationship is over...one of the parties usually ends up more hurt than the other & occasionally, this person is still in love with the other person. nothing hurts more than being in love with someone who no longer feels the same way or has already moved on. 

getting your heart broken is one of the most painful things you will have to go through, but believe that it all happened for a reason & things will be alright. it will take some time but eventually you'll learn to cope without that person. 

love is a beautiful thing, & when you make that commitment to be in a relationship with someone & fall in love- you sign up to potentially end up getting hurt. like someone said before: "when you begin a relationship there's two outcomes. first one it could be a forever thing or the second, it can be a lesson." that is one of the truest quotes I've read. 

also, remember the one who broke your heart cannot be the same one to mend it !! time heals everything....

the truth takes courage..& so does heartbreak. 

don't forget you are beautiful ! & self love is the best love....

checkout these quotes related to my post below !

xoxo

MUSIC I'M CURRENTLY LISTENING TO....

Hey guys ! I'm sure you all love music & use it as an escape ! I love music.....it helps me relax. I don't know if you've ever heard the quote "when you're happy you enjoy the music, when you're sad you understand the lyrics." That is so true ! I enjoy different genres. I've currently even listening to a lot of Lil Wayne's old mixtapes, the weeknd, & reggae...I am going to list some songs I've been loving.

1. Lil Wayne "Nina"
2. The Weeknd "The Hills"
3. The Weeknd "What You Need"
4. Vybz Kartel "Dancehall"
5. Vybz Kartel "Volcano"
6. Lil Wayne "Blunt Blowin'"
7. Lil Wayne "I'm Me"
8. Rich Homie Quan "Flex"
9. Kehlani "Unconditional"
10. Big Sean "Platinum and Wood"

Give a couple of these songs a listen.....

xoxo Marina

about to do something bold

I love this quote.....change is necessary. even if it's something you're afraid sometimes you can't help but move with the flow & make decisions that ultimately will either benefit you or teach you a lesson. either way it'll be a win win situation. 

TriBeCa 04/19/15

hey guys ! I am in TriBeCa, NYC sipping on some coke. I came to the city to visit my momma & catch up with her. I miss her so much ! I make an effort to speak to her daily & make it a point to keep grounded by remaining close to her. family didn't mean much to me growing up & after a couple stalls in life I realized that family is & should always be your number one priority. family over everything & everyone.....family isn't always blood. family are the people who are there for you through your ups and your downs....the people who love you for who you are & stay in your life no matter what. I'm enjoying this beautiful day out here, I hope you're enjoying yours. I'll be road tripping back to jersey later on tonight, maybe I'll vlog & blog it ?! haha, thanks for reading my posts ! 

xoxo

Marina J

Tuesday movie night

hey guys ! it's Tuesday April 7th. I am waiting for the movie #Furious7 to begin & I am super excited ! I've been a long time fan of the Fast & Furious franchise. I was super sad when Paul Walker passed away. I am excited yet sad to see him in his last movie. I will catch up with you soon ! 

xoxo Marina

Doing Little Things That Make You Happy

Good morning loves !

I've been up since 6:46am & I must say I feel great ! I'm typically not a morning person, but I fell asleep early last night & ended up waking up early as well. I've had a small vacation from the real world (a pleasant surprise,) & it's coming to an end. I must say, I have enjoyed it quite a lot because it was needed ! 

I've come the conclusion that if you don't bring yourself joy no one else truly will. You have to find the small things that make you happy....& do them ! Today, I woke up, hung out in bed for a couple hours under my covers. I watched YouTube videos (love makeup tutorials,) got up-heated some leftover homemade pizza at 10am ! Turned on Hulu & watched Mob Wives while I ate pizza for breakfast !! Now, this isn't healthy nor is it something I do every day BUT I was in the mood to do something that made my little soul feel better. Sometimes it's the small things that count ! I challenge you to do something that you've always wanted to do that maybe isn't ordinary- & do it !! You'll surprisingly find that, that one thing makes you happy :-) share in the comments down below your favorite thing you do that you feel is a minor way to bring self joy! Talk to you soon....I'm enjoying some John Mayer right now !! 

Xoxo Marina J

NEW BLOG & QUICK UPDATE

I didn't realize it has been exactly 11 months since my last post !!! I started this blog to mainly focus on beauty related posts but looking at it this blog is looking a little more personal. So, I went ahead and created a new blog solely focused on that ! I will keep this blog (though I contemplated deleting it) and update you all on what is going on with life in general. I mean it is named after my thoughts. I will talk about person opinions on controversial topics, what is going on in the world, personal updates, etc. Not exactly sure what exactly else there is that I would like to talk about on here. All I know is, is I hope to help you change and somehow inspire you ! Much love, stay blessed xx

xoxo Marina

Start Living for YOU !

Sooooo it has been almost a year since I last wrote in this blog. Truth is -I have dealt with a lot of events that have changed me as a person and the way I think. It took a lot of emotional turmoil and dwelling to get over it. I am beginning finally accept everything for what it is & move forward !! I have slowly started mapping out my life goals & what I would like to accomplish while I am on this earth. The video above truly inspired me to start living life to its fullest. It is a list of what you should do before you settle down. Now, I don't necessarily agree that you have to be single or in a non serious relationship to do something you have always wanted to do or accomplish a goal you've set your mind on ! No, matter of fact I believe if you maintain a mindset filled with positivity, you can achieve anything you commit yourself to. I have committed to start doing what is on that checklist while adding my own twists to them & probably coming up with some more items to add on that list. I have already achieved #24 which is to keep a journal. I know not many if anyone at all has really read this blog, but if you're reading this-I hope to inspire you someway, somehow to be....YOU! Live it up because life should be lived and LOVED under your own expectations. I remember someone once told me "you are the driver of your life, drive it how you want it and in whatever direction you want to head into." That was some awesome advice. Now I would like you- YES YOU - to make a goal, list, whatever you wanna call it and stick to it. I will keep you updated as I accomplish my list. I know it may take a while, but eventually I will get them done. I will share my stories. Sorry for the late post, I will do my best to update as often as I can. Love yourself & put yourself first. Self love is the best love :-) Watch the video above and comment your thoughts below !



xoxo Marina