start doing what makes YOU happy !!!

hey guys !!! 

today's post is going to be about happiness. & what you can do to achieve it. I believe happiness is a temporary feeling. I have yet to be proven wrong. but I also believe you are responsible for your own happiness. you have to do things to get there. even the smallest things can make a person happy. so I'm here to encourage you to do those things !! for example for me: I recently became a blonde from a brunette. I felt like it was time for a change, so I went ahead & dyed my hair blonde. it feels liberating & great to do what you want. I felt happy being able to do something so little such as changing my hair color but super meaningful. I encourage you to step up & do something you've always wanted to do because life is too short. also, never depend on anyone to make you feel happy. you'll just end up getting disappointed !!! If you're reading this, make a list & start doing the things on there !! :-)

xo 

rina

love makes you blind

I'm writing this because it's how I'm feeling at this very moment. when you love someone so much, so strongly & so deeply it makes you oblivious to stuff. when you're in love it causes all the bad things to not look as bad. you start making excuses as to why they do what they do. love makes you blind. it drives you crazy, too. sometimes I wonder why we feel such feeling so deeply that our vision becomes "foggy?!" it hurts to give your all to someone & it not be good enough. I mean maybe it's because they're just the wrong person. or the timing is off...who knows ! everything happens for a reason, right ?? anyways, thought I'd write this quick little post since I'm not active here....if you're reading this just know you aren't the only one feeling a little confused about your emotions or why you feel how you feel. it's a natural & common thing we all have to go through....

much love

xo❤️

finding what you're meant to do/who you're supposed to be...

hey everyone ! I don't know if anyone right now currently feels or is going through what I'm going through, but I currently feel LOST. I am 22 years old, I haven't finished one full semester of college, I've been working in retail since I was 16 years old. numerous things have slowed down my college career. Now that I may have an opportunity to actually go back to school I have no idea what I want to do. I feel pressured by people & myself to quickly find my niche & get my degree. I have a huge fear though....I don't want to end up like everyone else that graduates college- either hating what they do or not finding a good paying job in their field. I do not want to waste years & money trying to do something I might hate. I'm already going through that...I feel super lost as to what I truly want to do. Yet everyone tells me I'm still young & I can do what I want to do. I guess I am my toughest critic at the end of the day. I don't want to FAIL ! I feel like I've already wasted so much time & energy making huge mistakes & failing in many departments that I do not want to keep on doing so. I guess I'm just trying to be the best I can be. I have a hard time relaxing or taking a backseat with certain things. I hope I can get the hang of this soon because I can't keep this up. If anyone shares my pain, please leave a comment !!! 

xo

decisions.

I'm about to make one of the biggest decisions of my young life in the next few days. I'm scared because it is in a way moving backwards. but I know if I do not do this now I'll regret it later. I've wasted my time & energy on the wrong people. it's time to focus on the one person who mostly matters - ME ! I'm about to embark on an epic & crazy journey. I'm leaving behind people who I love deeply & who have hurt me just as deep. this is the opportunity of a lifetime & not everyone can do this. I feel blessed & I also know there is a specific reason as to why I do what I do. will explain soon. xo. 

Random Ramble: Heartbreak

hey guys ! I am sure most of you have fallen in love at least once in your lives, right ? 

well, I have came to the conclusion that sometimes you can love someone oh so very much but at the end of it all- it's still not enough. love sometimes is not enough to maintain a relationship or be with a person. there needs to be a connection & the willfulness to want to make something work. 

when a relationship is over...one of the parties usually ends up more hurt than the other & occasionally, this person is still in love with the other person. nothing hurts more than being in love with someone who no longer feels the same way or has already moved on. 

getting your heart broken is one of the most painful things you will have to go through, but believe that it all happened for a reason & things will be alright. it will take some time but eventually you'll learn to cope without that person. 

love is a beautiful thing, & when you make that commitment to be in a relationship with someone & fall in love- you sign up to potentially end up getting hurt. like someone said before: "when you begin a relationship there's two outcomes. first one it could be a forever thing or the second, it can be a lesson." that is one of the truest quotes I've read. 

also, remember the one who broke your heart cannot be the same one to mend it !! time heals everything....

the truth takes courage..& so does heartbreak. 

don't forget you are beautiful ! & self love is the best love....

checkout these quotes related to my post below !

xoxo

MUSIC I'M CURRENTLY LISTENING TO....

Hey guys ! I'm sure you all love music & use it as an escape ! I love music.....it helps me relax. I don't know if you've ever heard the quote "when you're happy you enjoy the music, when you're sad you understand the lyrics." That is so true ! I enjoy different genres. I've currently even listening to a lot of Lil Wayne's old mixtapes, the weeknd, & reggae...I am going to list some songs I've been loving.

1. Lil Wayne "Nina"
2. The Weeknd "The Hills"
3. The Weeknd "What You Need"
4. Vybz Kartel "Dancehall"
5. Vybz Kartel "Volcano"
6. Lil Wayne "Blunt Blowin'"
7. Lil Wayne "I'm Me"
8. Rich Homie Quan "Flex"
9. Kehlani "Unconditional"
10. Big Sean "Platinum and Wood"

Give a couple of these songs a listen.....

xoxo Marina

about to do something bold

I love this quote.....change is necessary. even if it's something you're afraid sometimes you can't help but move with the flow & make decisions that ultimately will either benefit you or teach you a lesson. either way it'll be a win win situation.